hey guys i'm andie, so i wanted to tell you guys about my story. it has been really hard in my life because of bullying and relationships with people. i feel all alone because all my so called friends are never really there for me. they will tease me and just say they are messing around but i know they aren't and they just feel bad. i am also struggling very hard with self confidence as i'm sure you have to. there are guys who have physical hurt me for revenge and whenever i speak up all they get is a warning. i am so tired of being left behind, forgotten. i feel like i will never be enough for people, all they do is use me. there is this guy a year older than me i'm going to be 17 and he just turned 18. the start of my sophomore year he texted me and said he liked me, we talked for months but he never wanted to ask me out. he would never talk to me in person and it seemed like he was embarrassed even tho most of his friends knew about us and they liked me too. i told him he was the only one that i would never choose his friends over him. he said he loved me but then went behind my back and started talking to my so called friend. he kept telling people he didn't know me and so i ended it but i still had him on my mind, my feelings for him can not just go away in a day i fell in love with him and he took advantage. i started dating this really cute guy named Adam and it was going good for a month in a half until the guy texted me and said he was sorry that he loved me and he promised we would be together that everything will change. so i started to cry and doubt myself on who was the better choice, it was Adam but i chose the other guy because he knew all my weaknesses and the right thing to say to get me back every time. i am always his second choice and i'm tired of it. how do i properly move on i can't stop thinking about him. i feel abandoned by all my friends and anyone who claims to have feelings for me. i can't help but wonder where i went wrong or if there is something wrong with me. i have tried to hurt myself multiple times because of him and bullying, i can not tell my mom or dad because i don't wanna be a burden or ruin my chances of anything in the future. i want to trust my self but it is really hard. i cry myself to sleep a lot, almost every night. so i am trying to get a job to get my phone i only need a 145 dollars so it won't be long and i am really hoping this place will help me make the right choices in life and make great new friends.