Hey girlies, I'm sorry I haven't been on for a while I started to lose myself but I took the time to heal. I live in Hawai'i so the beach is my getaway. Right as I was doing so well I just found out the news. Tonight I found out my grandma has stage 4 ovarian cancer. She's literally the only family member since I was a baby (besides my mom) who has raised me. I instantly started to feel the pain and now I'm slowly falling into all the memories of when I was a baby girl. I'm not ready to lose her, I just don't have any part in me that can take one more loss. This week is the finals so I have three essays, three big exams, and two projects, and a presentation in Spanish so it's not the best timing. I just can't- I have no energy left to do anything. I cut off any friends who weren't there and that was about a good 25 people so I don't have anyone to actually run to. People only ask you if your okay when you post smt on your story, cry in a hallway or go off on someone so I ran to you guys because I feel that this is a safe community.
I'm at a low and I'm ready to run towards the things I've seen my family do as I grow up (drink, smoke, runoff, etc) Ik its dumb but that low part of me just wants to. Someone help me, remind me to not do this.
hey love, I know things could be rough right now but things will get better. Continue to do things you love to keep your mind off things. I hope that everything gets better very soon. If you need to talk I’ll be here. 🥰🥰
Hey baby girl sheesh that is some tough news mama but the community is here to help you and heal you in any way I kmow that life is going to be hard and not going to go the way you want it and you are absouelty right there are going to be fake ass friends who just ask you if your okay when looking at your story im so sorry about your grandma right now but she doesnt need you pouting she needs you rooting for her that she will make it out strong find anything that you can escape your mind tooo!! And when your doing school work forget about what is happening and focus and tell yourself I can do this and i will do it not just for myself for for my momma and my grandma. the Jerziiigirlss will always be here to love and support you im trying this new strategy called the law of attraction alot of people say it fake or they never tried it but I recently started doing it and so many of my wishes came true look it up and help yourself out mama im here too talk to as welll and we can get to know eachother and help one another out here is my email sarahxgarcia5@gmail.com love you stay safe and be healthy.