Ok I’m tell you my story, when I was 9 my mom passed away in a car crash and I never really understood that she had passed away until I was like 12. Then I was depressed and I self harmed of a while. After a couple month my dad overdosed and then I just completely shut down and stopped talking to my friends. i ran away from my house and it was just a really bad time for me. Ive lost so many people in the short 13 years I have been alive and I honestly don’t understand how i am alive right now.